feeling~

i dono how to describe my feeling right now
suddenlly i think back everything in westin
i miss he, he, he, she, she, she....
i miss somebody..
i feel like i want to cry....
can i stop this feeling?

why everything can say change then everything become different?
why a good friend can change like so strange?
i really cant read what is in ur mind?
can u all tell me?
who am i to u all?
why every time i treat people by heart,but lastly no people will appreciate it??
why at last i am the one to get hurt?
why is me???
should i not too close,not too friend with everyone?

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start my first job in CDM for 6th days...
everything still ok,the working environment is ok,
but i still need some time to learn from the start...
talk about the quaters,i can jus use one word
that is too HOT!!!
u can imagine the whole day like inside the sauna room
the six day,i jus have one day can direct sleep untill morning,
others, i sure hot until awake at lately night
i been experience to sleep in sweating...
how come so hot??? i also dont understand......
mayb one day i will faint cos too hot
mayb one day i will die cos too hot
i need it to rain right now!
i need a extra fan right now!
i need a air corn right now! (if possible)

@25.08.2010@